The other day sitting in a quite corner of my room, without the pressure of submissions or incessant blabbering of my roomies to distract..I thought about how much life has changed for me in a matter of few months. Living out of home for the first time, it has been a difficult yet rewarding experience. For a pampered darling of family, I guess I'm managing pretty decently!! And yet my room is in a mess, meals are rarely proper or on time(believe me..I am quite a health conscious person..!!). Everything used to be so magical with mom around, rooms would be cleaned up, clothes washed and ironed and food delicious and ready. Oh! How I miss that comfort. But this existence has given me a sense of Independence and more importantly a sense of responsibility. I have also begun to value relationships more than I ever did. Be it the never-ending,ever-loving advice of my grandpa or dad's discussion of everything under the sun, his "preetu bitiya" or mom's incessant nagging about the kind of food I eat, kind of lifestyle I have etc etc, I miss it all. How I miss the way mom always stood in the balcony waiting for me to get back from school. The look in her eyes and the warmth of her embrace were enough to take all tiredness away. At times, it's very lonely to come back to a closed door, but that's how life is.
The one person who has suffered more than me in this transition is definitely "him". Hehe..Behind every confident independent woman is a self-assured man and I am really proud of mine. He has been my rock. I fought, shouted, sulked but he was a dream, ever-supporting, never-complaining. I would be up three nights at a stretch for submissions, hair all messed up, eyes groggy and he would still look at me and say "you look gorgeous". Thanks a lot for all the days when I act impossible. Life would have been rather tough without u. In these 3 years, the wanderer in me has found a place to settle down.
So my exploration of this new existence continues..as of now
"I am learning to be a spider on the web of so called realities, neither denying it nor trapped in it..but just playing with it"
